“Poor me poor me. Nobody believes in me.” If this is you, I’d like to invite you to ask yourself: “If I was someone else looking in, would I believe in me? Am I true to my own words? Did I do what I said I would do?”
Each time you promised yourself you would eat better, or exercise, or change your life, did you keep your promises? If you haven’t kept the promises you made to yourself, YOU will quickly stop believing in yourself. And you will project this unto the external world. Others will receive the vibe “I cannot be trusted”. If you’re lucky, you will meet one or two people who can see beyond your own projections and into the truth of who you are and what you’re capable of.
Butttt… waiting for that day/person to come will result in disappointment. Usually by then, you’d be so broken and feeling so hopeless you would push that person out of your life (self-sabotage) because you might have lost all faith. Too good to be true, you’d say.
I haven’t always believed in myself. It takes discipline and lotssss of practice. YEARS! It took consistent effort to keep the promises I made to myself. It took me doing things despite how low I might be feeling. Despite insecurities. Despite anxiety. Despite extreme fear. It took me taking action. Lots of actions. But now I believe in myself more than anyone else does. Actually, if anyone doubted me, I just ignored them. I know where I’m going. I may not necessarily know what to do step by step, but I know where I’ll end up. I surrender the in-betweens… and I do my best to enjoy the process and sometimes, the struggle. I know that when I look back at this moment, I will smile and be grateful for everything I endured on the way there.
I have been one of those people who saw through others’ self projections and their capacity for greatness. I have tried and wanted greatness for them more than they wanted it for themselves. I have wanted people to heal more than they wanted healing themselves. It just didn’t work. I have wasted so much time, money, and effort, and ended up frustrated and very disappointed. How can they not want to be in a better place? After wrecking my brain and searched within my heart for a while in deep reflections, I came to the above answers. These people didn’t even believe in themselves. Who am I to push them to be better? Just because I love them? That’s not good enough….it’s irrelevant, actually. They don’t even love themselves. So it doesn’t matter what else is happening outside of themselves or what people tell them. Their inner world and beliefs are so strong that they cast everything else out of their auric and etheric fields. You can tell them how great they are until you’re blue in the face and they wouldn’t hear it.
So I just focus on my own work now and growing myself and my empire and be an inspiration to myself. If I keep being true to myself and my own words, that’s all that matters. I am living and breathing my core values and I care less and less about what others say and pay more attention to what they do. I’m always happy to help, but only if I see commitment and effort from the other person. Otherwise, I’m out. I’m not here to be taken for granted anymore. I know my worth now. I hope you do too. We aren’t here to screw around. We can’t keep delaying our soul advancement. It’s time to take our life seriously. TAKE ACTION.
On that note, make this feel good Spinach Artichoke Dip. It’s vegan, dairy free, oil free, sugar free, and soy free. You can have delicious food and feel good! If you’re allergic to nuts, feel free to sub the cashews with hemp hearts, tofu, sunflower seeds, etc. To cut the calories, combine tofu with the cashews/seeds. Of course, this recipe won’t be soy free if you do that. YOU DO YOU :)
Add vegan cheeze if you’d like. Make it yours.
Spinach Artichoke Dip
3 cups raw cashews
3 cups water
1/2 cup nutritional yeast (nooch)
2-3 tbsp lemon juice
(to your preference)
2-3 teaspoons salt
1 tsp vegan lactic acid (optional)
4 cloves garlic, minced
1 medium onion, diced
1 tbsp salt free seasoning (your fave brand)
8 cups loosely packed fresh spinach
(remember, they wilt and become a mere handful)
(3-4) 14-ounce cans artichokes drained & rinsed- add 3 cans worth first, then see if you want it thicker
Preheat oven to 400F
If you don’t have a Vitamix, Blendtec, or a powerful blender, soak your cashews for 4 hours or boil them for ten minutes.
1.Sauté onion & garlic. I omit oil and use water or veggie broth instead, cooked covered on low heat. When the onion is translucent, add the spinach and heat until just wilted but not completely cooked.
2.Blend cashews, water, lemon juice, nooch, and salt. Add the optional vegan lactic acid to the blender.
3.Pour the blended cashews and sautéed onion garlic spinach into an oven safe bowl and add the artichoke. Mix well.
4.Bake for 20-30 minutes (covered for the first 15 minutes then bake uncovered or until the top is golden brown.
Optional: vegan cheeze topping.
Enjoy!